If I did things differently…..

In these past weeks, I had some regrets tangling in my mind, and it’s all about J.

If I did things differently, would he still stay? If I did things differently, would he be in love with me? If I did things differently, would his lust can turn to love? If I did things differently, would everything will not end up like now?

I have no idea but I secretly wished to have a second chance with J to do all things differently, but….

Right after my sunny holiday to Gili that I thought could overcome my broken heart becoz of him, and I thought could made me moved on but failed, I got an insight when I was waiting for boarding time at Lombok airport. I got into a bookstore and saw a book with title “Dont U forget about me” by Alexandra Potter. I thought at that moment, this book can change the way I think about what I have been through now. To mend my broken heart. Turned out, it is..

this is the book

this is the book

Maybe I am not kind of girl who gets inspired by the biography of Hillary Clinton or Barrack Obama or Margaret Thatcher, but indeed this simple book of chicklit can moved me. I am that simple maybe, simple yet shallow. ;p

Reading this book, my tangling regrets get answered perfectly. No matter how u did things differently, the result will be the same. When thing might go back to the first place all over again, the story might goes differently, but the result, in the end might be still the same. Its not how I did it, its not how if I did things differently, its the final result, its all about in the end I am not meant to be with J. Its all about he is not the man I could be end up with.

Now I get it. Sometimes I have to see something from a different side. I was always wish I never met him at the first place, but turned out thats not the point. From that book I got all answers for all my uneasy matters. Its not the person I met that matter, but what I had to go through with him that matter.  Dont ever wish to erase a history or a person in a history of your life coz its all that make u become the person u are now.

So if I have a second chance, erase and rewind, I believe the final result will be the same, so I dont think I need to rerun the same page all over again just to get through a different story with the same ending. I choose to move forward to another phase of my life, the next chapter with a different cast. Life is too short to dwell in the same problem over and over again. Life is to moving forward and not stopped at the same point.

Wise men say, if its meant to be, its meant to be, and u cant runaway from it. If he is the person that meant to be with u, no matter how far u run away from him, no matter how he try to avoid being with u, in the end, he will be back to u, and u will be back to him. And no mistakes can take him away from u.

Now, I can let him go from my heart and n head, with no regret and no grudge I keep inside my heart. He just passed by my way, crossed my path and thats it, now I say goodbye…

Au revoir J.. Wish u have a good life… 🙂 It just nice to meet u…

 

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The place that I will keep coming back

 

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Heaven that I will keep coming back!

Beach!! The most place that I am gladly visit over and over again. And for the second time of my life, I was coming back to Gili islands, my favorite place on earth that happen to lays on my country! Its a yay!

Where is Gili islands?

Not a surprise, this place I called heaven must be famous amongst the Europeans. How so? becoz almost 90% tourist coming there are Europeans, and I can tell lots of them speak french and others maybe Dutch and Deutch and something else, I feel like an expat in my own country.

Gili islands is a perfect destination for couples. Consist of 3 island, Gili Terawangan, Gili Meno and Gili Air. Most tourist choose Gili Terawangan for their main destination coz this gili is the crowded one and the place for party, the second one is Gili Meno, less crowded and the best choice for honeymoon. I’ll think about this one for my honeymoon if one day I got married :p. And then the third one is Gili Air, the most beautiful one for snorkeling and diving spot, calm water and perfect underworld. Too bad I have no underwater camera :(.

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blue sky, white sands and crystal clear water my favorite for all time

If anyone wonder how to reach this triple Islands, here’s the clue.. First of all, we have to landed to Lombok first, the main island before we go the the triple island gili’s. Why Lombok, cos there’s where the plane landed, hehehe. If U want to go to the triple islands Gili, pf course u got to landed to the nearest airport and the get to land transportation to the harbor to cross to the island.

Lombok International Airport (LOP) in Praya, Lombok Island

Lombok International Airport (LOP) in Praya, Lombok Island

Beautiful scenery along the way to harbor from airport

Beautiful scenery along the way to harbor from airport

the harbor and the boat to go to Gili islands

Bangsal, the harbor and the boat to go to Gili islands from Lombok

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this is inside the boat!

That’s the boats! yea nothing fancy but believe me, its all worth it!

yea, we sailed also with banana! lol. But cant U see that man is smiling? 🙂

The special thing about this boat is, its not only can transfer people, but also can contains food, gallons of water for drinking, vegetables, even a mattress! Too bad I didnt snapped that one. But this boat is all in one transportation device, really cool!

And one more special thing I can tell from many other special thing about this island is, in Gili, all we got is only fresh air. Yes! totally fresh air. U can free your lungs here from all the residue from vehicle, coz all they have no vehicles at all in Gili Islands. They only operating horse cart and bicycle for transportation. No cars and no motorcylce, superb!

lunchtime

lunchtime

This is a commong thing to see a view like this, shirtless men or bikini top women having lunch in cafe nearby. Well I can say in Gili, the food is not really special. Since they have expat tourists coming here, they serve many western food. But nothing special about it. But people come here not to enjoy the food, but the atmosphere and the priceless scenery.

Who cares about the food if u have scenery like this?

Who cares about the food if u have scenery like this?

I feel like in baywatch! ;p

I feel like in baywatch! ;p

my lodge

my lodge

open market to have dinner if u want to keep your budget tight :)

open market to have dinner if u want to keep your budget tight 🙂

my snorkel gear

my snorkel gear

 

See U soon, Gili.. I will always coming back to U... :)

See U soon, Gili..
I will always coming back to U… 🙂