Secrets & Lies

People live with that in daily life. Noone can ever avoid having secrets and lies.

People usually having secret to protect someone else and lying to avoid conflict, it’s common, it’s normal, it’s human. But what about people who make secrets and lies just to create a new version of his life in front of another people? Is it normal? Is it right? Isn’t it horrible?

I was had a fresh experience crossed path with a horrible person like that. I met him online and then met him for real. he was like a decent person, we seemed to have lots of things in common. We shared the same interest, we shared our thought, we shared our daily life, we seemed to be clicked. But after a while, things changed.

I never suspect people, I never googled people, if I want to know something about him, I will just simply ask him, coz I count first person information as the most reliable if I got it directly from the source himself, but I was wrong. In the new era of digital, we cant rely on the person himself to know the truth. Internet speak truth louder than the person himself.

As a woman, I always have an instinct, and as a woman count as the crazy one, I do have a wild instinct, and I promise myself to always listen to it, coz it mostly revealed the truth about a person when I feel wrong about.

Back to the guy, just call him Mr.A, after almost 4 month we talked, one time we met in person, only one time coz he lives in Bangkok and I live in Jakarta, something felt wrong. I dont know what, and I dont know why I felt that, but I was just felt it, something was off and something was wrong, then I dig in through the internet and I found out the truth about him.

He lied to me all these times, none of his words are reliable. He just a big fat liar. Turned out he’s been married for 11 fuckin years and I have to find it out myself and he just runaway, just like that. What a jerk and what a coward.

Well, maybe I am overreacted, but I definitely have a zero tolerance on that. How could he did that to me? And maybe the right question is, how could he did that to his wife??

Where were her when he did what he did to me? And how could someone erase a part of his life for 11 years? Is she even mean something to her? Can he just tell me, “Hey I’m a married man and I’ve been married for 11 years but I want to fuck u”. That’s more has dignity to me. I will more appreciate that than being lied these times as if I’m the dumbest person on earth. Honesty is the most honorable thing than the sweetest lies.

I dont hate him for who he is, he just a pathetic coward nothing can change that, I just hate what he did to me, lie to me, being fake to me, think that I’m an idiot. I hate that. I dont like that.

Something to learn about this, I cant trust people, how sad is that when something digital holds more truth than the word of human himself? How sad is that that we can no longer count on the truth that spoken from the person himself? Human lost their dignity to a thing called technology, when the oath coming from the mouth of a human can no longer count as the pure thing as truth. So maybe we have no reason to promise, no reason to tied ourself under oath. Leave it to the internet and the all the digital service to speak the truth, human is no longer valid to speak the truth..

Adios humanity…

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